The event started when my cousin decided to come on the last Eid to have a look at our new house and meet my family members. Actually they have never been to Lahore so this was there first visit. On the very first day, we tried to enjoy by doing roaming around the fortress and the bowling valley. He had never tried ‘shisha’ before he liked that. On the next day we went to ‘exhibition’ or fare where we found a palmist. Well, every one tried the palm reading there. When it came too my turn, the response of the palmist ‘baba’ was awfully annoying to me, he told me a few common things, including my high degree of interest in arts and the suicidal tendency, he also claimed that I would be betrayed more than once. That left a quiet bad impression on me. Being a computer graduate he also disappointed me by saying that I should not work in the technical area, however I was planning to do a phd in cs.

So much so that in my personal life I feel myself very boring as I think more on ‘how limited is this world’ rather than ‘how big is this world’. Moreover , I began to think what would be the condition/circumstance when I would try to escape from life. And how am I going to perform this act. This idea caught me into interesting situation.

Ever , heard of the book named, ‘101 best ways to escape’ or ‘probability of death occurrences’, never ah. Infact, No one have ever tried to write the possible way to have death, if some would have, then that material would have been explicit or banned or restricted.

Infact, the moment a person decided he does not want to live any more, he falls in to the sick category. The ‘ok’ person like me ends up writing an essay like this.

Let’s don’t go after the causes of the suicidal tendencies, I want to focus on the method to achieve the escape successfully.

I see people generally like slow poising. It has its own taste and value. No body actually knows that who is going to die by whom and when? Well most people get married to get enrolled in this category. Martial life is like slow poison, your wife tries to abuse u to death, various economic problem may arise which are going to be uncontrollable.

Unmarried people get to their escape door sooner than the married person. The society plays role here, ‘sex mania’ also comes in the picture and baby you are gone. Bachelors tried to save their lives by getting married. Well it has the highest life expectancy. Right!

Now the other major category is the love people, in the dictionary of love, they call it ‘the sacrifice’- not the religious one here. Lover blindly tries to ecape from life to have the love of his/her beloved for eternity. Well, eternity is it self a mess of confusion. Its uncountable like infinity, and much of research is to be done yet. We will not consider the undefined things here. About love , yes love is an association or possessiveness to some worldly object, anybody can love every other body ( in the logic ). This implies that I can love my boot as well as my wife. If it comes a situation, that I had to scarifies my love for one of them, then what… I need a boot before I need a wife…here goes wife!! And that’s scarifies.

People who love ‘I hate you’ phrase and they use it mostly in the absence of the subject. Well , you can run the converse theorem here, hate makes you eliminate the subject in your life, here comes the power to end the life, and the person having hatred becomes the source of suicides injections in the society. Hate it self is a negative attitude in life and it’s the fact that the people having such thoughts also found to have suicidal tendencies (refernce)

Then comes the people who know what they are doing and why are they doing it, also tries to run for this escape scheme. In fact they are very positive people mostly successfully rather I should say, never had faced a single failure in their lives, ends up with the same situation. Shame of failure is so much big that it becomes unbreable to continue the unexpected expectancies of life and they agreed to have a try for certainty in death. They think about suicide once at most.

The people who do not know what they are doing in their lives, ends up with a psychotherapy session. They had always questions in their minds. Making their imagination and ideas more convoluted then ever before. The psychologist tries to bring them back to lives and if the person is not intelligent or genius, his recovery is successful, other wise ‘I am destined to be…..’ hope you get it.

Morale: Important thing is the rate of suicidal death is always less than the rate of people who actually thought about getting themselves killed. According to limit theory, limit of x tends to infinity equal to life, where x is the rate of people who actually thought about getting themselves killed.